I just re-read Part 1 and noticed that I portrayed my BIG REALIZATION as very sudden. It wasn’t sudden. I had always been a little bit rebellious about living large in a fat phobic world. Well, maybe not always, but I think the seeds of doubt re dieting started way back in my college days (as…… Continue reading Big fat realization part 2: mind. blown.
It’s been ages since I’ve posted anything here. So much has happened… I am now 315 days sober, and I feel all settled and calm and happy about that. It is truly remarkable how the urge to drink has drifted away. As noted before, when I first quit drinking I fought tooth and nail against…… Continue reading Big fat realization, Part 1
Day 84 sober. Still feeling pretty solid on the non-drinking front. Pema Chodron is a very inspiring buddhist monk who has been teaching me lots about how to ‘stay’ in discomfort instead of escaping. I love the idea… and I’ve done absolutely nothing to change the way I deal with discomfort. I’ve actually just been working…… Continue reading Don’t scratch the itch.
On Wait Wait Don’t Tell me last weekend: PETER SAGAL: So do you have any tips for those of us who would like to arrive at 93 as spry and as successful and happy as you are? NORMAN LEAR: What occurred to me first is two simple words… SAGAL: Yeah. LEAR: …Maybe as simple as…… Continue reading What does Norman Lear have to do with it?
AA people, and anyone else you ask (especially very wise, very long time sober women). will tell you unequivocally that you must not worry about anything except staying sober when you are trying to get sober. Your sobriety is #1. If you smoke cigarettes, don’t try to quit those right now. If you like your…… Continue reading A clue.
Two months ago I was mired in my over-everything: over drinking, smoking, eating, whining, crying, fighting, and despair-ness. I decided, because I was, oh, throwing up when I brushed my teeth (sometimes with hints of blood) most nights… that I HAD to quit drinking asap. My brand new beautiful marriage was at stake. OK, honesty…… Continue reading Where did all this come from?
I’ve been sober for 78 days, and a non smoker for two months-ish. I feel so free. Quitting drinking and smoking wasn’t an easy process, and I’m still firmly in the “beginner” category. One of the themes in the alcohol recovery community is to do “whatever it takes” to stay sober. Even if it means eating…… Continue reading The beginning.