Total Fatty

Today is the Pride parade in SF. It’s just a few blocks away from my little room rental here in South Park, but I’m sitting writing this blog post instead of moseying over there to watch the fun. I’m here instead of there because I’d be watching the fun, not participating, and that feels like…… Continue reading Pride.

I finally got a good night’s sleep last night. No bad or wacky dreams. Ethel-the-13-yr-old-pug didn’t wake me up at 4am to pee. There was some semblance of sun outside my window when I woke up a little bit before my alarm clock. Yeah. That’s some gooood sleep. I was reading a fellow blogger’s comment…… Continue reading Ahh, blessed sleep.

I wonder how many blog posts have this title. It’s a cliche because it’s true, right? Riiiigggghhht??? I am 13 months sober, 12.5 months cigarette free, and now about two months into Isabel Foxen Duke’s “Stop Fighting Food” master class. I feel kind of navel-gazed-out, if that is a thing. I’m bored with self improvement. But then,…… Continue reading The struggle is real.

One year sober and cigarette free as of April 15th. I am in utter disbelief. My life feels so different and yet I am settling nicely into taking it all for granted. I worry about that, but I guess it’s human nature. That pic on the far right is me in a bikini. Yah, you…… Continue reading One year. Holy Shit.

I’ve been wanting to hide for a week. I resigned from my job (of seven whole months) to take an amazing role at a startup in San Francisco. I’ll be working remote, mostly, from my home in Seattle. It’s SO so good. But this past week at work has felt pretty much awful. And in…… Continue reading 359 days booze free, 343 smoke free

When I feel out of control desire for sugar, is it because I’m addicted to sugar, or is it because sugar is a food I fear because it makes me gain weight? If sugar makes me gain weight, then it is a bad food. Gaining weight = bad. If it is a bad food, I fear it…… Continue reading Food addiction=diet addiction

I’m going to take a breather from my food stuff today and go back to what started this whole journey: quitting drinking and smoking on April 15th, 2016. I’m 344 days sober today, and that means I’m very very close to hitting the one year mark. It’s pretty hard to avoid having thoughts around re-integrating…… Continue reading Close to one year booze-free…waffling.

Today I want to dive deep into an idea that I have been mulling over (and over) after quitting drinking, smoking and dieting. First, I think we can all agree that the word addiction is over-used (especially in a casual way) and misunderstood (duh, scientists are working on this). Since we know and agree that there aren’t clear…… Continue reading Addiction doesn’t apply to food.