I’ve been wanting to hide for a week. I resigned from my job (of seven whole months) to take an amazing role at a startup in San Francisco. I’ll be working remote, mostly, from my home in Seattle. It’s SO so good. But this past week at work has felt pretty much awful. And in…… Continue reading 359 days booze free, 343 smoke free
When I feel out of control desire for sugar, is it because I’m addicted to sugar, or is it because sugar is a food I fear because it makes me gain weight? If sugar makes me gain weight, then it is a bad food. Gaining weight = bad. If it is a bad food, I fear it…… Continue reading Food addiction=diet addiction
I’m going to take a breather from my food stuff today and go back to what started this whole journey: quitting drinking and smoking on April 15th, 2016. I’m 344 days sober today, and that means I’m very very close to hitting the one year mark. It’s pretty hard to avoid having thoughts around re-integrating…… Continue reading Close to one year booze-free…waffling.
Today I want to dive deep into an idea that I have been mulling over (and over) after quitting drinking, smoking and dieting. First, I think we can all agree that the word addiction is over-used (especially in a casual way) and misunderstood (duh, scientists are working on this). Since we know and agree that there aren’t clear…… Continue reading Addiction doesn’t apply to food.
I just re-read Part 1 and noticed that I portrayed my BIG REALIZATION as very sudden. It wasn’t sudden. I had always been a little bit rebellious about living large in a fat phobic world. Well, maybe not always, but I think the seeds of doubt re dieting started way back in my college days (as…… Continue reading Big fat realization part 2: mind. blown.
It’s been ages since I’ve posted anything here. So much has happened… I am now 315 days sober, and I feel all settled and calm and happy about that. It is truly remarkable how the urge to drink has drifted away. As noted before, when I first quit drinking I fought tooth and nail against…… Continue reading Big fat realization, Part 1
Day 84 sober. Still feeling pretty solid on the non-drinking front. Pema Chodron is a very inspiring buddhist monk who has been teaching me lots about how to ‘stay’ in discomfort instead of escaping. I love the idea… and I’ve done absolutely nothing to change the way I deal with discomfort. I’ve actually just been working…… Continue reading Don’t scratch the itch.
On Wait Wait Don’t Tell me last weekend: PETER SAGAL: So do you have any tips for those of us who would like to arrive at 93 as spry and as successful and happy as you are? NORMAN LEAR: What occurred to me first is two simple words… SAGAL: Yeah. LEAR: …Maybe as simple as…… Continue reading What does Norman Lear have to do with it?
AA people, and anyone else you ask (especially very wise, very long time sober women). will tell you unequivocally that you must not worry about anything except staying sober when you are trying to get sober. Your sobriety is #1. If you smoke cigarettes, don’t try to quit those right now. If you like your…… Continue reading A clue.
Two months ago I was mired in my over-everything: over drinking, smoking, eating, whining, crying, fighting, and despair-ness. I decided, because I was, oh, throwing up when I brushed my teeth (sometimes with hints of blood) most nights… that I HAD to quit drinking asap. My brand new beautiful marriage was at stake. OK, honesty…… Continue reading Where did all this come from?