I started writing this post three weeks ago. Here’s where I started: “I am home in Seattle for a brief spell for Thanksgiving and an extra week before heading back to SF/Oakland for more year-end work madness. Then in another two weeks I’ll come back to Seattle for a little time off and Christmas. Holy…… Continue reading My revolving door of resolutions.
Kelsey Miller’s “Big Girl”
I started to read Kelsey Miller’s “Big Girl” over a year ago, but I had to keep putting it down. It hurt too much. Her story had way too many parallels to my own. And her writing style made her pain seem light and breezy, and funny, and I kept feeling angry and sad for…… Continue reading Kelsey Miller’s “Big Girl”
Giving thanks for soberness.
I’ve been meaning to begin a daily gratitude practice. You know, writing things down every day to get my head straight and opened up for whatever the day brings. And, as my friend Kelly puts it: build up the gratitude muscles so they are automatic when bad shit happens. But I haven’t done it. Maybe…… Continue reading Giving thanks for soberness.
West Oakland baby.
Hi readers! I have some news: I now live (part-time) in West Oakland, CA. I wanted to spend more continuous time at my San Francisco company’s office, so I had to figure out how to do it without spending a fortune (#startup #cheap). So I’m renting a room in a house in West Oakland, one…… Continue reading West Oakland baby.
Day 9, no nicotine.
Howdy. I just wanted to let you all know that I’m doing ok. I’ve had some bad days in terms of my overall mental and physical wellbeing — really a few bad weeks — but what’s weird (weird-good) is that I don’t think it’s permanent and I know I’ll figure this shit out. Even before…… Continue reading Day 9, no nicotine.
Oh whatta beautiful morning!
Good MORNING everyone!! I have never ever taken a “the moment I woke up” selfie in my life. Not ever. But today I wanted to because today I woke up feeling amazing. I slept (accidentally) from 4:30pm yesterday until 7am today… so, that’s a ridiculous and probably unhealthy amount of sleep. But I guess my…… Continue reading Oh whatta beautiful morning!
Yay! Got past the famous, dreaded Day 3. I ate like a crazy person and slept fitfully last night, but I got through it. I also treated myself to a visit with a friend for sushi dinner at her house in the country (Redmond, WA). Her kids are maybe the most adorable kids ever, so…… Continue reading Day 4.
Day 3 still, and, ummm…
Hi again. I just wanted to let you all know that I cannot stop stuffing my face with food things today. It’s 12:45 pm here in Seattle, and I’ve already eaten one big bowl (three servings) of oatmeal with brown sugar and pecans and half and half. Then a bowl of leftover pickled green bean…… Continue reading Day 3 still, and, ummm…
I’m told that it takes around 3 days to get “all the nicotine” out of your system. So, today’s the day to be done with nicotine in my bloodstream. Day 3 is also famous for being the hardest day of all. OK – so will it be easier from tomorrow onward? We’ll see. So far,…… Continue reading Day 3.
Checking in on Day Two (2) of my nicorette gum withdrawals… I am currently drinking my coffee, wishing I could chew a piece of nicorette gum with it. The feeling of emptiness is somehow excruciating without being physically painful. I know intellectually that withdrawal and cravings go away (from my experience quitting drinking). But, like…… Continue reading Day two.